Following my earlier posts the suggestion of attending a munch has been one that keeps popping up from different people. I would like to thank everyone who has advised me between then and now in any regard, both online or offline, i appreciate it and recieving that advise is why i started the blog in the first place. But please allow me to describe and put into words my stance on attending a munch or BDSM event.

I understand that they are meetings and are purely social with almost no occurances of sex, sexual incidents or in deed any form of BDSM related encounter and merely exist for bringing likeminded people togeher in a safe and non-judgmental environment, at least that is what i understand from my research and the literature i have read. I know of a couple near me and have often toyed with the idea of attending a munch, the BDSMers networking solution, but my problem is one of confidence, the lack of, and in reality i am a shy, lost boy who tries to move up and on with his desires but flees before anything can really occur naturally. I feel attending a munch would overwhelm me, not so much the context as the amount of people, i am not good with groups and often fear prolonged social interaction with people who i have not met before on an individual basis and perhaps shared a quiet beer with.

Through such fear i have missed many a oppurtunity, sadly, but i have been unable to beat and eradicate this trait of my character. I feel a gentler introduction is in order, perhaps through a person already on the scene.

I am working on what can only be described as a social desease and am seeking a cure of my own concoction so that in the future i may join what seems like a lovely community of people who are open and accepting, more so than the wider World.